This coming weekend feels like a loaded one. Not in any real negative way...it just feels like one where an infinite number of things can go wrong...
I am really looking forward to going home. To be in my house, with my family. It's relaxing, comforting. If I could just shut myself away within its walls, I would have absolutely no worries about this weekend. Maybe a brief lurch in the stomach that my mother and sister might engage in verbal warfare...but that's survivable.
Perhaps I feel hesitant to go to Campbell River, because I haven't been there in such a long while. So much has happened. So much has changed...I fear that some possible awkward moments are getting to me. One being the obvious, which I'm going to avoid addressing in any real way because it is just that...obvious. The second being the Saturday night I have planned with my four girlfriends in CR. I really am unsure why I bothered, because anything I try to plan either gets blown off, crashed by cling-on boyfriends, or destroyed by animosity. Now I'm sure
you're wondering why I bothered. I guess I bothered because I rarely see these girls. And this weekend we are all in town and for the first time in forever everyone is getting along. So hopefully they can get over themselves and go out with me to the new stripper bar in town...(oh joy of joys. Actually, I really am dying to know what it looks like inside. You won't catch me near the stripper pole though...did you know that there can be up to 5 live STD's on a stripper pole at one time??...yuck. That was a fast fact from my sister, who up until recently worked at the VD...)
Anyway...this post is deteriorating rapidly. It's funny, even though I haven't really said anything, I feel better about this weekend. All I have to do is brace myself...Wish me luck!