Have I just committed career suicide?
Okay, so my Livejournal has my "happy-go-lucky" post about my job for all my bitchy friends who are just waiting for me to fail, get fat, and join them in suburban hell...now this is what is really going through my head. Have I just made a huge, irrevocable mistake? Yes, I'm happy that the job search is over and that I landed a job with a decent wage and all that...However, I still feel like I've let myself down. I have a fucking degree and I'm working in insurance...good god what has become of me?...
I feel like I could have done better. Is that so bad? But what could I expect with barely any experience in the field I want to join. If I think of this as a transition period, a job I'm using to pay the bills while I work toward other things it's not so bad. I just can't stand the thought of becoming trapped at BCAA. Just staying there and stagnating. Not really doing poorly, but not really progressing or doing what I love either.
I know I'm a snob. I admit it willingly. I have higher expectations for myself than most other people I know have for themselves. They are content to work in insurance for their entire existence. I'm not putting that down, I'm just saying it's not for me. I want more. I went to school so I could have more. Their careers is my greatest fear realized. This is my honest opinion, which I can't express to most people without them thinking I'm purposely offending them and their way of life. I'm not! I can't help that I have high hopes for my career. I also realize that not everyone has the luxury of working at a job they love because they have had to settle to support families etc...but I'm not one of those people. I'm not going to pretend that I'm happy to just let fate push me in a particular direction. I want more than that...I might not achieve what I want, but at least I'll have tried instead of lacking all initiative to better myself.
posted by Jenevieve @ 10:06 PM
3 Comments:
So it's a GOOD job -- Get Out Of Debt, is the definition I was told.
Fix the debts, put away some bus fare and then assault the dream again.
And while your dreams are career-oriented, maybe your co-workers are content to work in a place you fear to stay. They may accept the job as nothing more than that - a job - so long as it lets them do whatever extratraviliary hobby they may have. I'd work a deadend sysadmin job if it meant I could afford a better place, some new computer bits every month and some nice, big fishytanks.
Okay, I lie. I'd still need to be doing something engaging. But I'm almost there, and I can see the comfort of a steady, reliable job within which one can pursue other things -- which may include kids or traveling as well as hobbies.
Yeah. I said 'extratraviliary.' I know just enough latin to make up new words that almost sound plausible.
I think I'm so freakin' cool.
The plus?
You understand that the job you have is a stepping stone or worst case, a fallback on your way to your real career.
The minus?
You may have to have this job for a bit to live, and enable you to volunteer or whatever to gain experiance in your chosen path.
It's nice to have a reliable income so you can do the day to day things, and not put life on hold for a career that may take a while to be fully realized.
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